Bun in the Oven

I was even more distraught when Johnny wrote saying that he really liked Australia and wanted us to emigrate there. I didn't want to live at the other end of the bloody earth. I also didn't want to leave my mum and the rest of my family. I was ready to dump Johnny and hoped that my relationship with Neil might turn into something serious. But when I first discovered I was pregnant I thought you were Johnny's. I was hesitant to write and tell him though. I was terrified that he might suspect that I'd been fooling around with someone else. I suppose I was feeling paranoid and guilty, but maybe if I'm honest, maybe deep down I knew you weren't his child.