I remember the nurses at Queen Charlotte's were really rude and rough with me. They treated us unmarried mothers like we were a piece of shit, as if we were prostitutes. But when you were born I stayed in the hospital a few days, on the ward for unmarried mothers, and I nursed you. You were a healthy looking baby and seemed happy enough. I did breastfeed you at first even though I knew I wouldn't be able to take you home because I was living on the caravan with Johnny and his mum. We wouldn't be getting married for another three months yet.