Birthday Blues

I only ever wanted daughters, so there was no way I could ever forget you. How could I? Birthdays and Christmas were always the hardest time for me. I thought about you then. I would wonder where you were and if you were happy. But birthdays were the worst for me. It was difficult for me to be happy at this time, but I had to really try hard to maintain a smile because all your birthdays fall at that time. Your birthday is July 18th, Carol's is July 19th and then there is Juliet's on July 20th, so those two always had their birthday parties together and would share their cakes and blow out their candles together. And, it would be at this time that I wanted to break down and cry, "Where is my other daughter? She should be here. My three little girls should be all together opening their presents."